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[Wednesday October 14th, 2015 ] im just not sure of anything anymore. i think i just need to leave everything behind. everybody makes me sick. i cant wait to go to college i may just go to cali or virg. to get far away from here. im moving by may thats all i know. i would really like to live in a different country but im not that rich. possibly i can do the study aboard program and go to europe i would enjoy that. i wish i didnt get myself into these situations. cmnt

[Wednesday July 31st, 2013 ] i may be moving to long island over the next couple of months. i got invited to stay with one of my friends who is moving there too, and wants to rent a house out there. its only around an hour away from manhattan so it wont be that far from the college i hopefully get into. i dont even need to go job hunting i could just transfer over. but im still going to get a second job. work-a-holic. hopefully as of next week ill have a second job during the day that is. it pays less then jcpenney but i could potentially make more because you get commission. ill only be working there twice a week maybe because i like my jcpenney job a lot. cmnt

[Friday June 28th, 2013 ] well ive been looking at apartments across the river, some of them are actually nice and dont cost as much as i thought i would need a roomate of course but i figure i can do it while still working at going to school. or next year i may go to college in the city. woahh i cant wait until college i really really want to go in the city. life = great as of next year. i cant wait to get out of this bumblefuck town! cmnt

[Thursday June 27th, 2013 ] i feel soo restless. i really feel like moving, my dad would have no problem with that at all minus the fact that we already started paying for dutchess. ugh. i like majority of my friends here but there's just always so much drama it just gets to you after a while. THERE IS ABSOLUTLY nothing to do. i could be walking around town with my friends in yorktown getting starbucks, drinking, seeing a bunch of old friends. im not even mad at anyone i just want something to do, and there is nothing ever. cmnt

[Saturday June 22nd, 2013 ] i really hate people. well good thing for it im not going to be here in a couple of months. the only thing i have to say is...... to all of you people that make me feel like crap screw you, and i cant wait until karma gets you because sure enough it will. have fun with that. i think i have a fever again, can some one cheer for me, and say FANTASTIC! cmnt

[Thursday June 20th, 2013 ] this is a nice way to start the summer by being really sick ive had a fever since early this morning. my nose wont stop running, my head feels like its going to cave in. i want tea with honey, and to play with nintendogs seeing how im not going anywhere for a while. i cant wait for thursday JUPITER SUNRISE!!!! cmnt

[Friday May 24th, 2013 ] i got my scheldule for dutchess next year, and its awesome i can work more! oh yea i have a job at jc penny, and zuimez now! im going to go out and celebrate this weekend. oh but getting back to dutchess so, on tuesdays and thrusdays i get out at 3:50, and mondays, wednesdays, and fridays i get out around 12. WORK WORK WORK. the only thing is that i have to start photography all over again, im in advanced photo now, and i have to downgrade to regular black and white. its not a bad thing, im just held back for a semster thats all. i wonder if they are going to make us do, just strictly black, and white all year? i hope not. its not even that big of a deal because i can just go use the colored dark room at jay. cmnt

[Thursday May 16th, 2013 ] this is going to sound strange but i could care less. i think i understand why im getting servely depressed most of the time. i dont like change to much and this year i changed to a new apartment. which i like but its a change. ive also noticed myself changing, and its almost like im fighting with myself, to stay the same way as i was at the age of 14. because i guess being younger, at the age of 14 was a safe zone for me, life was great. i guess with out realizing it im scared of what im going to become because im stepping out of my safe zone. i notice a lot of different things about me evolving, but not really changing. im going to make it a goal to start going with my intuition rather then what my brain's first impulse is. life is good, im excitied for my art final but not for all the work its going to take me to do it. cmnt

[Friday May 10th, 2013 ] im so sick right now, i havent eaten anything all day because i cant even keep water down, so at this point im just throwing up stomach acid. im so light headed and dizzy and now on top of all of this i have to run to my school without becoming sick in the car ride there to get my rough draft for a paper that is 45 points, and about half my grade that is due tomorrow. ugh i just want some one to sit with me or bring me soup but ill most likely waste the 75 cent it was bought with because ill throw it up. please some one bring me soup or crackers, anything light, someone just come over and be with me. cmnt

[Tuesday April 30th, 2013 ] i love mostly everybody, and i smell from baseball. i never get to see you anymore, the most ive seen you is twice a week? maybe three. hopefully it will get better when your school is over? 1 cmnt

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